It took a while for my horror feelings to subside - my “trip started out as a horror trip actually, i simply at somepoint accepted the possibility of maybe not coming back from this - i went to meditation retreats before taking LSD, and i confronted terrible feelings in what people call “dark night of the soul” - so i was primed for letting go and openning up.
You only really need to contemplate it longer, because truthful death awareness, i found, made me appreciate my time better, and the time of those who spend theirs with me.
The initial reaction is fear and a terrible thrashing, like a scared child would experience, which is what is at the center of what we think is the adult self. The child never actually “grows”.
So it’s ok man, you’ll feel ok about it eventually. PM me if youd like to talk about it
You only really need to contemplate it longer, because truthful death awareness, i found, made me appreciate my time better, and the time of those who spend theirs with me.
The initial reaction is fear and a terrible thrashing, like a scared child would experience, which is what is at the center of what we think is the adult self. The child never actually “grows”.
So it’s ok man, you’ll feel ok about it eventually. PM me if youd like to talk about it