I totally get that too. Right after I struck out as an independent contractor a long time ago, I did some stuff for ExxonMobil. Very smart people there. Very tight, collaborative structure. It was easy to see how they had been so successful for so long. Lots of things working in sync. Totally unlike the situation at Scumbagger where you advanced quickly if you could get your snout far enough up the FSM's ass. If you were like me and came from an oilfield culture where ass-kissing could get your ass whooped before they fired you (seismic field crews never put up with any bullshit), then it didn't work for me at all. My FSM actively held me back and denied promotions that I had earned, moving the goalposts every time I hit the expected target. I wasn't the only one. He openly bragged that his payroll burden was the lowest in Anadrill for all regions globally because he had the least number of SFEs on his payroll. He said that he delayed promotions at all levels to keep his numbers low. He had come out of college with an MBA on a fast-track to management.

Life is full of new experiences. Every day finds you at another node on the decision tree that will ultimately define and document your life to others. Pick the wrong path and your options at the next node will be less attractive than those behind you. Pick the right path and you can continue like branches on a hackberry, making the most of every opportunity to continue growing toward the light.

Had I followed the path that vengeful rage had offered me I would never have had the opportunities to polish my skills and grow my career into a successful consultancy. They got off easy because I chose to take the long view for my family's sake and chose to let it slide while taking every opportunity to find another job. If I had let it be personal then a lot of things would be different.