Given that I'm not the only reply you received reading it that way, perhaps you should consider that you did not communicate what you think you did.

Please point to any part of my post that reads best as "you can't just do an activity for your own joy".

You can just admit you made a mistake. It's fine.

> a dystopia

i think this part gave people the impression that you meant that doing something "for nobody" (eg. for your own joy) was somehow bad/malevolent

See the comment below.

You can just admit you communicated poorly. It's fine.