IMO:

Why did I need to do the absolute most to reach this point? Ego

Why couldn’t I just leave Loom and say “I don’t know what I want to do next”? Ego

Why do I feel the need to only be on a journey if it’s grand? Ego

What is wrong with being insignificant? Ego

Why is letting people down so hard? Ego

Fix the unhealthy Ego and master self worth. You are a gift to humanity, hope you find a path to help humanity.