Weird that you brought race into it, especially when your supposition is incorrect.

> OP sounds like a rich white dude having rich white dude problems.

Yeah, definitely white: https://www.google.com/search?q=vinay+hiremath&btnG=Search&u...

This reminds me of that Supreme Court case from 1923 where the entire case was about deciding “are Indians white”.

Crazy how that was not that long ago in historical terms.

Did they sentence him to being white?

I looked it up, thinking he was Native American.

But he was Sikh (Indian Indian), and arguing his proto-Indo-European ancestry qualified him. He was ‘acquitted’ of being ‘white’, and case thrown out. Really interesting case, actually.

Some pretty nasty stuff in there from the plaintiff about his revulsion too and not wanting to marry the ‘lower castes’ (and some argument regarding Mongoloids) to help quantify him as ‘white’ in case you get too sympathetic.

[https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/United_States_v._Bhagat_Sing...]

It seems like you grew into your loneliness and that you also did it consciously

OP found himself alone rather fast and without truly realizing it was happening

He’ll probably get over it at some point, will find a group to belong to and redefine his identity along the way

Neither situation is intrinsically better or worse, just different and subjective to each one of you