*> First, My own upbringing did nothing to equip me to properly raise a child. I...

> First, My own upbringing did nothing to equip me to properly raise a child. I simply cannot trust myself to do a good job.

With this realisation alone you might be in the top percentiles of the population.

> I'm sure someday the future will look brighter but it sure as heck isn't today, or any time in the next 50 years.

And yet it still might be better than at least 99.98% of human history (50 out of 300k+ years).