https://jondouglas.dev/little-dark-age/

https://jondouglas.dev/the-stress-of-life/

https://jondouglas.dev/save-your-soul/

https://jondouglas.dev/obsessive-compulsive/

https://jondouglas.dev/love-of-fate/

https://jondouglas.dev/from-the-ashes/

Lots of depersonalization, heightened nerves, low lows, and desire to be alone. If you've ever read Leo Tolstoy, the best description is in his novella "The Death of Ivan Ilyich".