Find a professional councillor. Low self esteem and dissatisfaction isn't healthy, you need help to re-ideate out.
Realising I wasn't an Antarctic Explorer, army leader, crack scientist public speaker artisan breadmaker lego designer extraordinary was .. liberating.
What I did is work in the not for profit sector for the public interest and make small incremental improvements which give me some satisfaction. I'm not FAANG wealthy and I don't care. I get to switch off and watch TV. I like being ordinary.
30 is young. You have a long life ahead. Don't live it on coulda/shoulda/woulda for a goalset drawn from other people's public persona, which is very often inflated, and self aggrandisement and humblebragging. Find a role and do the best you can in it, to make the world a better place. If that's small scale effort take pride in it.
Have experiences while you can. The more the merrier. Do not neglect your health. Learn pedestrian things like how to cook, how to fix a car.
BTW "imposter syndrome" never dies. I'm 62, retiring inside 5 years after a lifetime in compsci and I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up.
Realising I wasn't an Antarctic Explorer, army leader, crack scientist public speaker artisan breadmaker lego designer extraordinary was .. liberating.
What I did is work in the not for profit sector for the public interest and make small incremental improvements which give me some satisfaction. I'm not FAANG wealthy and I don't care. I get to switch off and watch TV. I like being ordinary.
30 is young. You have a long life ahead. Don't live it on coulda/shoulda/woulda for a goalset drawn from other people's public persona, which is very often inflated, and self aggrandisement and humblebragging. Find a role and do the best you can in it, to make the world a better place. If that's small scale effort take pride in it.
Have experiences while you can. The more the merrier. Do not neglect your health. Learn pedestrian things like how to cook, how to fix a car.
BTW "imposter syndrome" never dies. I'm 62, retiring inside 5 years after a lifetime in compsci and I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up.