I've been programming for almost 30 years, 15 of it on essentially the same code-base, and 5 years ago I could have written something similar to what you posted.
The part of being over-protective of the code-base particularly resonated.
In the end, it's not worth it. Yeah, you might do a lot of the work, yeah, it's good stuff, but that just means your good at your job. Help others up to your level, be patient, slow down, and make friends of your co-workers.
And then go ahead and learn something hard - that always does great for knocking me down a few pegs and remembering I'm not all that. I'm just a medium sized fish in a small company pond and there are people out there doing really significant work and you can learn from them. Hell, just switch JS frameworks, that's enough for a year's worth of feeling lost.
The part of being over-protective of the code-base particularly resonated.
In the end, it's not worth it. Yeah, you might do a lot of the work, yeah, it's good stuff, but that just means your good at your job. Help others up to your level, be patient, slow down, and make friends of your co-workers.
And then go ahead and learn something hard - that always does great for knocking me down a few pegs and remembering I'm not all that. I'm just a medium sized fish in a small company pond and there are people out there doing really significant work and you can learn from them. Hell, just switch JS frameworks, that's enough for a year's worth of feeling lost.