What I think could help you the most is reading about schema therapy[1]. It's a therapeutic method which says we all carry certain lifetraps which we acquired during childhood.
Some lifetraps:
- abandoment: you are afraid of being abandoned by a loved one
- worthlessness: because of the way your parents treated, you feel that you don't have any value. You can't understand why anyone would love you, for example.
- failure: you believe you can't accomplish anything in life
What I think could help you the most is reading about schema therapy[1]. It's a therapeutic method which says we all carry certain lifetraps which we acquired during childhood.
Some lifetraps: - abandoment: you are afraid of being abandoned by a loved one - worthlessness: because of the way your parents treated, you feel that you don't have any value. You can't understand why anyone would love you, for example. - failure: you believe you can't accomplish anything in life
There are a few more.
I found this book very helpful in understanding Schema Therapy and the lifetraps that apply to me: https://www.amazon.com/Reinventing-Your-Life-breakthrough-be...
[1]: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schema_therapy