You are not alone. I also do have serious imposter syndrome. Not about work but about not being a good enough father. But as with work imposter syndrome, my head knows I am probably ok, it is meant to be hard. But I feel guilty for any time I spend on my computer and not playing with the kids.
However I always wonder how these robot parents do it, those that seem to be able to raise 4 kids, time to volunteer for PTA and kids sports, work full time, go to a gym, have hobbies, socialise, tidy house and look impeccable doing it.
When daughter number 1 came along it was hard. Cut down socialising. Gaming and coding only after 11 pm if not already asleep.
But then number 2 came along and it was near impossible. No socialising, no gaming, no exercise, not enough sleep, and no coding.
Though since I work as a contractor I have often taken a month or two off between contracts to both spend time with my kids and catching up with new tech. And lately not had full-time clients so been able to some personal coding during day time hours. Also if I have a client in London I have some me-time for coding on my hour-long train commute.
Though in September the youngest started school and suddenly the house is so much quieter. And daily routines are so much easier. We may resurface soon.
However I always wonder how these robot parents do it, those that seem to be able to raise 4 kids, time to volunteer for PTA and kids sports, work full time, go to a gym, have hobbies, socialise, tidy house and look impeccable doing it.
When daughter number 1 came along it was hard. Cut down socialising. Gaming and coding only after 11 pm if not already asleep.
But then number 2 came along and it was near impossible. No socialising, no gaming, no exercise, not enough sleep, and no coding.
Though since I work as a contractor I have often taken a month or two off between contracts to both spend time with my kids and catching up with new tech. And lately not had full-time clients so been able to some personal coding during day time hours. Also if I have a client in London I have some me-time for coding on my hour-long train commute.
Though in September the youngest started school and suddenly the house is so much quieter. And daily routines are so much easier. We may resurface soon.