I hear your point, but there's literally a homeless NPC and an NPC suffering from combat PTSD. Another way of looking at it might be that you're empowered to make a meaningful difference in the lives of those people which feels good.
Not only does that second NPC suffer from PTSD, he's absent from the village for the first year, serving in the military that's actively fighting a war.
I really can't remember. I'm not a speed demon doing 17 minute 5ks for sure. I'm trying to look online and it looks like I have run a 23 minute 5k a few times. I don't know if I have run faster than that or what training I was on when I ran those. I wish I could remember but I haven't done races in quite some time.
There would have been some students at West Point in 1828 whose families owned slaves. Slavery was only abolished in New York State one year prior to this. "Incessantly racist" is probably underselling it.
>Among the artifacts scientists uncovered were a liberty dollar coin from 1800, a 50 cent piece from 1828, a quarter from 1818, a dime from 1827, a 5 cent coin from 1795, a penny from 1827 and an Erie Canal commemorative medal from 1826, which was issued to celebrate the completion of the Erie Canal in upstate New York in 1825.
I'm not denying there was racism and slavery at the time. I was asking if the contents would reflect a society that never had a thought or action that didn't revolve around hate, i.e. 'incessantly'. Do you think the contents meet this criteria?
Also, keep in mind that at this point the American Colonization Society (then Society for the Colonization of Free People of Color of America) is a thing.
The ACS isn't in favour of slavery, but it also doesn't want free black people in America. Instead, it proposes what today you'd hear yelled by bigots as "Send them back". It wants the United States of America to be a white country, and it's going to literally ship all the black people to Africa.
So yeah, no slavery there, but still "incessantly racist" seems a good characterisation.
That your situation is of a different magnitude (and it sounds terrible; I'm sorry) does not make the relative change in another person's life any easier.
> Name one new product that Facebook built from scratch (did not acquire), launched, and made a sustained success of since their original social network.
I'd be more open to this if we hadn't already seen wild swings in the crypto market (BTC is down ~50% from its 12-month peak) without much in the way of broader implications.
> I can get hired as a software engineer wherever, but I’m only mediocre at doing the job.
I feel exactly the same.
Mind if I ask how you deal with this?
I recently left software (not sure if temporary or permanent yet) and I'm pursuing tutoring in an unrelated field. So far I'm liking it more because I feel better than mediocre.
Haven’t really figured it out yet. Working on something I care about seems to help, although it’s not always easy to find. Having a strong, trusting relationship with my coworkers also helps. Easy to get detached otherwise.
Having other sources of meaning in life keeps me going during periods where my career isn’t going as well, gives me perspective and keeps me from getting depressed (I’m prone to it).
Working at top companies has helped me meet a lot of amazing people, including many of my closest friends, so I’m grateful for that at least.
Also, this gets thrown around a lot on HN, but if you’re brilliant at hard programming puzzles but not good at engineering jobs you might have ADHD. I do. Medication and/or ADHD-targeted treatments and accommodations could help. They’ve been modestly helpful for me.
